Hey dawg, I know I don't play darkRP and really know anybody over there including you. But I can tell you that there are much better alternatives than starting/continuing to cut. Please don't do that, talk to someone. I push you to stop what you're doing and call this number 1-800-273-8255. Don't feel like talking to some professional or whatever I completely understand. This whole community as a whole is here for you especially myself. I just sent you a friend request on steam along with messaging you here on the forums. All I am asking for you to do is reach out. Keep your head high king, don't let that crown slide off!