oof, don't take this too harsh, -1. I've legit only interacted with you 2 times, both of them were relatively unpleasant. The first time was a while ago before we switched back off csdesert and you threw a hissy fit when someone said something you didn't agree with, the second one was less than a week ago, we were on teamspeak, (I don't remember who said it) Someone asked if you were 8 because you were acting like a child and being extremely whiny when you weren't able to "contribute" to the conversation, causing you to start crying. You then complained that because you couldn't be part of the conversation, you'd kill yourself. Not knowing if you were joking, we changed the conversation to suit your needs. This went on for 10-15 minutes until we got tired of having to walk on egg shells with what we were talking about, not wanting to "alienate" you. After that you got upset then got off.
TL;DR I don't think you're fit for staff at the time being. I also don't find myself wanting to go out of my way to spend time with you on the server.
If this is not the same person that was in the channel, I do apologize and would like you to message me personally so I can get a grasp on how you are.