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I hadn't known about rule. I was expecting to get a 2 week at the time. It was basically an accidental loophole

If you have read what I have said you know why I did it. Also, the rule wasn't a thing until after my ban. It hadn't been on MRP rules. and I was acting off of emotion like I've said.

Hmm, now most of this is true. I have been away for 5 months. I was toxic for a few good days because I hadn't want to agree with the fact I was depressed. I wanted to hide it from my team, my comrades. So I made others feel worse by being toxic so I could forget about the pain I have. Me and Aidan have made up through forums, I wish to talk to him on Teamspeak or Discord the next time he is on. "Because of your past behaviors, I do find it hard to believe that you've changed for the better, as the only thing that can help with behavioral changes" When you say that about Topshot, many others in the community were just like me and Topshot. Ozzy made an appeal from being community banned, he was accepted because people saw the change and gave him a chance, Topshot was banned 2 times 3 chances currently, one ban for Hacking another for toxicity. Jake was very toxic at the start if I recall to garnet and other players, he may or may not have been temp banned for it. He changed. But people put faith in him. I understand that what I did is very different from these people. My ban was 100% deserved but as of now, change is something I'm told happened to me not just by what I say but what the community that has COMMUNICATED with me in Teamspeak. All of them besides ImDream have said I changed. I was a veteran plotting mass. It was a mistake I know, but if you talk to me in Teamspeak and were there for when I played SWRP you could make an opinion of the new me. I'm not saying your opinion is 100% invalid it is just you don't know the real me, You aren't giving me a chance to show you. If you have proof that I haven't changed you have 100% validness in your statement. I can't prove that I wasn't going to mass because I was really stressed that day. As Homeless says "You cant control your emotions right now" My depression wasn't the only reason why I plotted to mass it was also because I was stressed of my SSO removal, In the video I showed I was very upset, my voice was shaky in the video as SSO was my distraction to my problems. My problems broke through the distraction. I never grieved the lost ones, I kept my sadness and numbness inside without telling anyone. I was AFK a lot because when I played the distraction stopped working I started to get very shaky psychically and mentally. I couldn't show @Homeless@Fetn@Captainswag@MRPAce as I didn't want them to worry because this could've been their escape from reality as well. I'm not blaming my intentions to mass on my mental health, it is just a factor apart of the reasoning's I had.

+1 | I've talked to Weeb a lot recently he is someone who genuinely cares for the server and wants to help out as best to his abilities. The only bad part is the time but you meet requirements. Good luck bro!

In-game name: Xploding, Sasori. SteamID (https://steamid.io/):STEAM_0:0:139105479 Staff members in-game name: Homast, Aidan. Staff members SteamID (/id (name): Aidan (STEAM_0:0:185163860) Homast (STEAM_0:0:70469215) Date & Time of incident: April 20th? Sometime around there. Timezone: Central Standard Time. Ban Reason: Veteran plotting to mass | I also like to think that my toxicity was involved. How long were you banned for?: Permanently until bans are completely wiped from MRP. Proof of Ban: | 2GA JSG Bang was banned by 2GA JSG Fukhed for 2 weeks. Reason: MassRDM (Good Riddance and Good Day.) | Appeal your ban at GarnetGaming.net. Later updated to a permanent ban | STEAM_0:0:139105479's ban was updated by 18A COL Aidan to 999 years. Reason: Bye Bye!. What happened? (include any proof): Basically what had happened during my second chance of returning to the server was that I had joined SSO under Homeless (Past leader) when I had joined. I faked who I was as a way to hide my emotions from myself. I don’t want to get much into that because I talk about it privately. When I was with Homeless’s SSO I was given many chances to fix up my act I always said I would but when I tried not to I was motionless and wasn't the Peppaga kid Ace, Salmon and Homeless referred to me as. So I decided to fake myself more then I had before. I became more toxic and more mingey in the community each time I was told about my immaturity. I got so far to the point where I had started to disrespect Aidan because I had problems with him. I don’t completely remember why the reasoning back then was. After I was removed from SSO in this clip I have https://youtu.be/vgwMtSGVRjU, I kept saying to myself and others that I was gonna mass and go do something else with my time because it “didn’t matter” the main thing keeping me distracted was Garnet and SSO. Once that happened with my removal I was starting to crack and break to the point where I decided to do something because I couldn’t go to any other SOC faction on the server as I was blacklisted from everything besides 2GA. Army I had problems in the past with so they had Shadow Blacklisted me I could only play as a PVT. When I told everyone in teamspeak that I was going to mass it was a call for help. Ace, Homeless, and Gamma all said to staff to temp ban me as I have things going on in real life. If needed I could go into detail it's just hard to talk about. After all of that happened we get to this point in the story. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaneEKSZ9ZI&feature=emb_title I tell the people in 2GA TS that I am going to mass. I tell Soldier, Moabkiller, Hugo, and Unknown Entity to call a debrief so I can finish off what I had set to do. The people that were in the teamspeak also had pushed me more to do it. In the video you can see everyone lining up so I can mass Moab a PPKN at the time promoted the mass to everyone in debrief to join. I am not and I mean I am not putting this on anyone else. I was pushed more than I wanted to mass before I joined the TS and even went to DB. To add something that day I’m confident I was going to mass DB. Before Homast hits me with the ban I say to everyone “Put Fuck Aidan in chat” I had said this because he was the one to give Homeless the word to remove me from SSO. Homast bans me and then it gets updated to a Perma ban. Why should your ban be removed?: Well now here is one of the harder parts of the appeal. My ban was necessary for the community. Since my ban I have played SWRP before its removal. I played 91st and 41st for a short time, maybe 2 or 3 weeks, something like that. During my return to the community I have been asked many times “When are you getting unbanned”, “Are you going to make a return”, and “You should make a ban appeal”. I have talked to people in Teamspeak the best I could to make things right for my name and my relationships. To show change and maturity. I understand that my last ban appeal (https://garnetgaming.net/forums/index.php?/topic/9226-xplodings-ban-appeal/&tab=comments#comment-87279) was extremely low effort, a lie, and a disappointment to look at to many, including myself. I tried to lie to everyone saying that I was changing and that the mass was a joke. It wasn’t a joke, I was planning to mass debrief and I heavily regret my actions. I’ve talked to many on my return, I got to understand what has happened to the community since my ban and fixed my problems with people I had hatred for the most. I think my ban should be revoked not just because I think I have changed but others think I have changed and think I am ready for my serious, mature, and respectful return to Military Roleplay.

+1 | Has experience, and was a great SWRP GM next to Jake. He's always been mature even in SSO when everyone was toxic and mingey. Was been devoted to GM on SWRP when it came out. Swag would make a great edition to the game master team for MRP.

Yup. I remember that... If I haven't apologized to you for that I am now. I held a grudge against you I'm not even sure why I had probably because you were the one to remove me from SSO, but I deserved being removed that day. We should catch up one of these days on discord or maybe TS I'm always in there.

Damn that sucks because I had just joined back and started playing on SWRP. I'm probably gonna main the murder server now. Sounds like a fun gamemode used to always play it. o7 SWRP.

No hes right but that was before my problems became worse. I thought that beefing with people and making them feel bad would be funny like dark humor or something. a way to distract my problems from getting worse to how they are now. I know I fucked up then to be quite honest if I was going to mass or not that day I was getting closer and closer to it. I hesitated many times in my head it was 3 or 4 hours after I was removed from SSO by Homeless. in Teamspeak I kept saying I'm going to mass. Over and Over. Ace is right about the IRL stuff its still going on but 200% worse. I'm not going into detail. In other peoples words they have said I'm better now.

From what I hear about you, you are a good person and that you have experience + a recommendation. Now I don't know you personally and I'm currently banned from MRP at this point in time so my opinion may not mattter. +1

Yes I understand that Garnet. I'm just making a post on my return, besides not trying to be rude it seems as if you are holding a grudge. Like I said you don't have to like me. You can call me out for bullshitting my maturity now too. But eventually you will see my changes in way. but I may be wrong. hope we can make up garnet

I'm not really sure how to start this. Yes I was Xploding. Yes I was a bad person that was in the community longer then I was should have been. This may or may not get controversy. It's been not too long since my ban I know what I did the community multiple times was wrong people say you mature by age I disagree though, you mature by pain. I might just be coming back to feel happy like I once was but I know that I've matured and this time I mean it. Some people have been asking me to make a ban appeal about how I've changed and come back to the community as a new person but I just don't know if that's the best idea yet. You can react to this however you please. I wont start an argument or be disrespectful towards you in teamspeak if you don't like my decision of coming back. I know what is new and what is old in the community as I catched up with members. I go by Sasori now, if you watch Naruto you know the background not that it matters. It's sad to see that only one of my SSO comrades are still here. But it's okay. It may seem like I'm rambling or not staying on one topic which I am. You can screenshot this and do whatever you want with it I don't really care much for anything which I did too much when I played previously. It's hard to talk about me, the real me I guess. I don't know I'm back and maybe its a good or bad thing

I never Said that... I was literally going to log off then come back in a couple weeks.

Intent to mass is not in rules. I did not commit RDM did I or did I not..

I can still make an announcement? I wanted to make more of an RP situation when I was leaving for a bit

Still doesn't give me the chance to say "Sike I'm just going on break." thats exactly what I was going to do.

In-game name: Xploding/Blackwater/Bang/Omicron SteamID (https://steamid.io/STEAM_0:0:139105479 Staff members in-game name: Aidan Staff members SteamID (/id (name): STEAM_0:185163860 Date & Time of incident: 4/15 earlier today like around 3:33PM. Timezone: CST Ban Reason: Bye Bye!/Mass. I didn’t even mass… How long were you banned for?: 2 week then perma. Proof of Ban: | STEAM_0:0:139105479's ban was updated by 18A COL Aidan to 999 years. Reason: Bye Bye!. 2GA JSG Bang was banned by 2GA JSG Fukhed for 2 weeks. Reason: MassRDM (Good Riddance and Good Day.) | Appeal your ban at GarnetGaming.net. What happened? (include any proof): I was calling DB and I said I was going to mass in TS as a joke because I wanted to get more people in the DB I was going to inform them about what happened in SSO and that I would be taking a break for a bit to fix up my act then come back to the community when I think I have changed. Why should your ban be removed?: Because I didn't actually mass. I killed 0 people in that DB. I was going to say that I was kidding and that I am taking a break.

Prices?

+1 I like the models the ones there are now are all the same model...

+1 My opinion might not count because I am in his regiment but in my eyes he is fit for the job.